Dr. Apt, news/ not good
Nov 1, 2019
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b1lXqh3qBhg

good evening everybody welcome to Friday
if you celebrate Halloween happy
Halloween if you don't well welcome to
Friday our Thursday I don't know if I
said Friday earlier uh for us we don't
do anything for Halloween you know
really I wasn't raised celebrating
Halloween I was just was never brought
up on Halloween and as I become an adult
and have had my own children it's just I
don't know I I don't like the world is
just not a safe place let's just put it
that way and sending my children up to
people's doors and stuff it just you
know each of their own everybody is you
know you guys are allowed to do as you
want with your children but for me I
just never have really cared for
Halloween so we don't celebrate
Halloween so we're just gonna stay home
and we put a sign on our door that says
no candy the lights stay off and then I
think we're gonna quietly sit down and
watch Toy Story 4 so I'm really excited
for the kids to see that
so anyways um as I told you guys
yesterday I had a doctor's appointment
coming up to date and so I went to my
doctor's appointment it went pretty well
my blood pressure was pretty high
however when they took my blood pressure
I wasn't like some of you guys are
nurses so you might understand this I've
always been told when you take your
blood pressure your to rest your arm and
you know like not talk no movement no
nothing well the lady that did my blood
pressure she had me just holding my arm
up by itself and my blood pressure ended
up reading 150 over a hundred which I
managed mine here at home I checked mine
here at home and my normal numbers range
between 130 to 82 that's usually about
what it is so they rechecked it at the
end of the doctor's appointment and it
ended up being 132 over 87 I want to say
so my doctor was a little bit
concerned about my blood pressure but
also because of my back pain that I have
been in serious pain with he said could
actually be contributing to my blood
pressure being a little bit higher
because I'm in pain so he said that he
wants me to back off from taking and the
ibuprofen and we talked about like you
know because I personally I I'm not cool
with narcotics pain you know pain meds
not that they're bad but for my family's
history I don't personally like taking
that type of stuff so like even when I
and plus I do have a high tolerance and
pain to a point in like when I went
through my my c-sections both of them I
refused my percocet I didn't even take
it I took tylenol that was it I didn't
even take one narcotic well I well no
excuse me I took the first night because
I can't take morphine I am definitely
allergic of morphine so they gave me I
want to say they started me right on
percocet so the first night I was on
round-the-clock percocet for the first
24 hours and then after that I switched
to tylenol and that's all I took my
whole recovery from both of my
c-sections and my like my gall bladder
surgery I refused all narcotics anything
I I don't take narcotics pain meds
nothing I just I just don't like them so
the most that I will do is my 600
milligram ibuprofen and then I will take
two Tylenol if need be but he feels like
the ibuprofen could be contributing to
my blood pressure and so he wants me to
stop taking the IV program so we talked
about management for pain because of
course I'm like I this is like stopping
me from living my back is hurting so bad
it is I mean I can do workout the rest
of my body doesn't hurt but my lower
back is excruciating that it stops
everything and I told him I can't do
this like I am I'm getting to the point
that I am desperate to find something to
lessen the pain so that I can push
through and be able to start building
that muscle up
however ibuprofen really doesn't even
help anyways at this point because I
think my body has gotten so immune to it
that it really doesn't do anything for
me so he put me on to something I don't
have it with me right this minute but
it's a med that will also help me sleep
at night but it's a pain blocker so I
take it at nighttime because for some
reason I am NOT being able to fall
asleep until like 2 3 4 o'clock in the
morning Ezra's been waking up at 4
o'clock in the morning every single
morning 4 o'clock she wakes up at 4 and
stays awake until 6
I am so off on my sleep schedule and so
is she and I don't know what has
happened but let me tell you it is
kicking me in the tail so he gave me
this to help with sleeping but also it's
a it's a pain blocker so I'm hoping and
hoping hoping and it's not a narcotic so
he wants to try it with this first and
see how we work with it how I work with
it
and then we'll go from there the other
thing
oh and then he also is calling in he's
gonna have x-rays done in my lower
lumbar I think it's called my lower part
of my spine and then if he doesn't see
anything which he said most likely he
won't see anything on the scan like on
the x-ray
that he is going to have to do an open
MRI on my back because I haven't had one
since last year and as of last year I
was showing some deterioration so he
wants to check that again because that
could also be you know helping with this
back pain if there's something tweaked
he said there could be a something
fracture I can't think of the name of it
right off the top of my head but
something fracture on my back so we've
got that going on and then last but not
least you know remembering that I talked
to you guys about getting some blood
work done yesterday for my a1c and also
for my Med for my vitamin D and
unfortunately those tests did not come
back the way that I was expecting them
to come back and you know I think that I
was getting a little cocky I think I was
getting you know taking things a little
too
what are you was - I wasn't taking
things serious you know I kept thinking
it wasn't gonna happen to me it wasn't
gonna happen to me I'm perfectly fine
I'm you know I'm a healthy fat girl you
know and all these things but it's
finally caught up to me and my a one
sees did not come back the way that we
wanted them to come back so for that he
is setting me up with a nutritionist I
have to 100% change my eating habits and
yeah we have a long road ahead of us but
I am guaranteed myself that I will not
live with this disease I will not allow
this to be something that's going to
control me so I you know when today and
I went and got proteins and you know
vegetables and salads and knocking out
all the carbs
I mean seriously knocking out all the
carbs there's no soda there's no none of
that which I haven't been drinking soda
I have literally been drinking my gum
some water and I enjoy it actually so
for me that's not gonna be a problem but
the rest of it is really gonna have to I
mean I have to get serious and with
getting in touch with an actual
nutritionist that really knows what
they're doing you know I'm not gonna be
doing I obviously I cannot do intuitive
eating in the sense that I mean I'm
gonna be on a major food change like it
has to happen so that was pretty scary
to hear also with that my vitamin D your
vitamin D is suppose a normal range
would be at a thirty my vitamin D was at
a low thirteen and so he is putting me
on fifty thousand milligrams of vitamin
D I have to take one pill a week for 52
days every seven days I have to take a
pill and then I'll have to increase it
decrease that he said it would probably
take probably about six months he said
to raise it to where it like would be
like back into a normal range um but he
said that that could be contributing to
my bone pain my back pain that is
contributing to why I'm so tired all the
time why I'm constantly yawning all that
contributes to my vitamin D and I had
never had my vitamin D checked I didn't
even know that that was something that
you know needed to be checked but I'm
glad that he finally checked it because
how about I mean how however how long
I've had a deficiency with vitamin D I'm
sure it's been quite a while because I'm
pretty
I mean I'm low so he said that you know
it's time to really buckle up and
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get on this ride and start really being
serious about it because clearly as my
age is going up my health problems are
gonna go up and I don't want to be one
of these people that end up in a
wheelchair by the age of 40 because I
chose not to take care of myself
I have too much to live for and I was so
angry with myself leaving the doctor's
appointment today because I was just
like you know you've had all this time
Amy and you're just like you've taken it
all for granted you know you're so
selfish of a person because you could
have done something to prevent this from
ever even being something that happen
the vitamin D okay that's something I
can't help but there's you know
obviously we can fix that but this other
stuff could have been stuff that I could
have managed and took care of and
avoided it a hundred percent but I
didn't I didn't I didn't do what I was
supposed to do and I'm here to say I
effed up you know I'm completely I
messed up and now I'm having to pay the
consequences and that's okay because you
know why those consequences are going to
teach me a lifestyle that I'm never
gonna want to change so life has just
gotten really serious here in my home
like I said I went to the store today I
got all different type of foods you know
we're all changing our eating habits
like that's just what it's gonna be and
you know my family is right there behind
me to support me you know Ollie is just
right there ready to you know help me in
any way he can you know we're gonna do
this and I'm gonna end up getting more
active especially because if I can get
this vitamin D and all this other stuff
done with my back so I can start even
pushing further I want to be in a
position in my life where this is just
you know that this is a memory that I
can look back on and be like I never
want to be in this position again
because I'll never reach
where I'm at again so it's just it
really has made me angry myself but I
guess when you allow yourself to be too
lenient and you think that you're going
to dodge every bullet that comes your
direction at one point or another you're
gonna get hit and today was the day that
I got hit and I got hit a couple times
over so I'm starting all of my meds
today tonight um I usually take most of
my meds at nighttime which my doctor
said is totally fine he doesn't see any
problem with that
I may have to mix up a couple of them
because of body I you want to say
because it's disgusting um I hate to
separate a couple of them so I may have
to take one like in the morning and then
one at night and then once I have to
bump up my meds then I of course will
have to take some during the morning
time and at night so I'll start all of
those tonight with my regular meds that
I'm taking he added a blood pressure
medicine and that's just another thing
it's like I was sitting here looking at
my meds and I'm like I am 38 years old
and I am I'm on so many medications it's
sickening and I don't want to be on all
of these meds I don't want to have to be
taking all of these things so it's just
a matter of time that I want to knock
all of these off of my list and not be
taking any of them you know and be
taking vitamin supplements just to make
sure that I keep everything up because
like he said I'll have to take a vitamin
D supplement for the rest of my life
which is fine I am okay with that but I
need to make sure that I keep at a
normal level so and I thought that
something was gonna come back about my
liver cuz I've been having a lot of
problems with my liver side but he
didn't see anything so maybe it's just
you know maybe my liver is just acting
up a little bit but not at any rate that
it would be causing
any type of concern so yeah that is the
update with my doctor's appointment
other than that you know it's it's a me
get serious because if not life is gonna
get serious
and I'm not ready to die I'm not ready
to lose my life over stupid food and not
taking care of myself
like I said and I think to myself is
food really worth it is it really worth
it like is the taste of a hamburger
truly worth me dying like I I don't
understand what is the concept why is it
so hard like I I know the answer I know
that you know cheeseburgers and you know
all this stuff is not worth dying but
then it's like when I'm in the when I'm
in the motion of it it's like it doesn't
it doesn't even matter like it doesn't
even connect like you would think that
connecting death and food that you would
like be at eliminate of amount that you
know you could stay away from it's like
but it's like it doesn't connect I don't
know it's so frustrating you guys it is
so frustrating and I had a commenter
today comment and I'm not putting this
person on the spot please don't think
that but they said you know I follow a
lot of obese channels and you know so
many of them have let me down because
you know I see that there's no change
and my response to them is were obese
for a reason were obese because we're
struggling some of us are struggling
more than others I believe I don't think
that there's anybody on this earth that
weighs 4 or 5 600 pounds because they
just like it I think everybody knows
that a person that weighs 4 or 5 600
pounds knows that they're they're
emotionally struggling in a way that
nobody who knows you know we all
struggle on our
levels and being obese isn't something
that I don't think anybody truly enjoys
I think some people lied to themselves
to say oh it's acceptable but in reality
it's not who wants to weigh that much
who wants to struggle to walk who wants
to struggle to fit behind the steering
wheel who wants to struggle to breathe
you know who wants to not be able to
keep up with their family or go to the
store and just do daily you know daily
activity things or clean your house or
take your shower by yourself or you know
who doesn't want to do those things and
so I I just want to put that out there
that I please don't put so much
expectations up against obese channel
not because we're not capable of
changing but obviously we're here
because there's issues and there's gonna
be hang-ups and I'm not saying that
today is the day that I change and I'm
gonna be perfect I'm not saying that
today's the day that I'll never ever
slip up again and never have a you know
a fallout mill or you know what I'm
saying but now I have true reason behind
getting a firecracker in my ass and
making sure I do what I'm supposed to do
I have a reason for that and now I know
shit's got real excuse my language but
it's gotten real and there we're not
playing no more now we're talking
serious we're talking health we're
talking medical we're talking you know
you can lose your life over these things
and that's not a way that I want to live
so
I know in the past that I've truly tried
and I know in the past I've led a lot of
people down prior to now because I
gained back majority if not most of my
way back yeah I have but I'm gonna dust
my knees off and go back and work at
this harder than I've ever worked at it
before because why I have to I have to I
don't want this I don't want to live a
life of having to tell people oh I you
know I have diabetes or I have heart you
know problems or I have you know x y
or I lost a leg because of diabetes or
you know whatever it is I don't want to
live a life like that and so for me it's
gotten real it's gotten real and I
welcome everybody on this journey with
me because this is this is gonna be a
game changer this news that I got today
is a complete game changer for me I have
to be serious about this there's no more
joking there's no more playing there's
no room to play it's all about hard work
and that's what's gonna be my driving
stone so anyways I am gonna jump off it
is 6:15 now I'm gonna get this video up
hopefully tonight if I don't get it up
tonight then I definitely will get it up
first thing tomorrow morning which will
be Friday when you guys see this but um
thank you everybody for your thoughts
and prayers I really appreciate it I've
had such amazing messages coming through
of support and encouragement and you
know I don't want to downgrade the
people that have given me you know
corrective criticism I I appreciate that
too you know coming at it with a loving
way makes such a big difference than
coming at it with your fingers pointed
towards me and and shaming me you know I
know that I have effed up I know that
I've made some major mistakes clearly
look at me but
being critical can be okay
depending on how you come across
somebody that's obviously struggling so
anyways I am gonna close I'm gonna stop
babbling but you guys all take care like
I said if you guys celebrate Halloween
happy Halloween please be safe watch out
for your babies and I will talk to you
guys later bye bye